Freedom.

I'm free. I feel free and happy right now. I am finally done with my math o levels after having to go through a whole year of waiting and shit. But it wasn't that bad, just that I feel that everything is worth it. I'm freeeeeeee. I can finally go out for a day without worrying. I killed Paper 2 and I feel great about it. It's way betterrrr than Paper 1 like dayum. :)

I'M FUCKING FREE. 


This post is also for the people out there, who were there for me during my exam period, and constantly encouraging me, telling me that I am possible, telling me that I can surely do this well. I want to sincerely thank every single one of you for being there for me. Really. You do not know how grateful I am, and I'm very touched to know that everyone of you truly believed in me when I didn't even had the slightest confidence in myself during this period. For my whole 16 and nearly 17 years of my life, failing my Os was my biggest failure and I am really glad I followed my heart and retook my math papers. This year is a bad year for me, because nothing seemed to be going my way. And I was going through a lot of problems and shit. Of course I wouldnt say that everything that happened were shitty, but most. I did had fun, duh. But I am very proud to say that I had worked really hard for my maths and NO REGRETS. I did my best, and.. yeah. So all's good. I wouldn't have overcome all these problems if not for my close friends and Cedric. I am really fucking thankful for all of you.

I'm just going to name out the few of my closest friends/ people who were there for me the whole time, just so I can express my gratitude towards them k. :)

Charmaine Leow.
So YOU. Charmaine Leow. We have really similar personalities, but we're still unique in our own way duh. This year we had a lot of quarrels. A lot. But to me, it seemed like a norm to me because we always bicker with each other for no reason, you unreasonable, insecure and paranoid bitch. But, you are a really really good friend, and you are always there for me regardless of anything. Family Problems, boyfriend problems, and my own problems. Thank you, for being there, and not having to judge me. I enjoy being with you, I'm really comfortable around you and through the setbacks we went through, I know that you are a true friend, and I thank you for being there with me throughout the whole fucking thing.I can't wait to get out with you again and spend late nights together!!!!! You the best man.JUST FUCKING STOP PICKING FIGHTS WITH ME K THANKS. NEXT.

Tan RongRong.
Hello rong rong! I dunno if you can see this but this post is for you k. Even though you are in Perth, you still made the effort to communicate with me through the internet, and even wrote a note for me to see so that I can perk myself up! That note meant a lot and I'm very grateful to have an awesome friend like you. :) I cannot wait to see you in December when you're back from Australia so we can do some awesome shopping, and some hanging out!!!!

Jessica Ho.
Yo Jess! :) You are so bubbly so funny and so hyper, and that is what I like about you. We can still feel so comfortable together even when we do not get to meet as often. You're the type of friend that I will still be close with regardless of distance or any other factor. You understand me well, and you are always there when  I need you( well most of the time lah hor) haha. We will need to hang out fucking soon with Rong rong and the others!  :)

Rachael Chan.
Rach, you are always the 'neutral' friend of mine.It's like, you're always sitting on the fence, and you're quiet and nice. But, whenever I talk to you, I realized that you are more than being quiet. We can talk to each other comfortably, and you never judge too. Thank you for being there for me, and do take good care of yourself. We shall hang outttt soon with da clique :)

Yap Xin Fei.
Yo fei! You are by far the most uncaring friend I met in the clique other than the boys. Hahaha I have a different meaning to this. Of course you do care for your friends, but you don't really show it. And besides we don't really communicate much with each other besides being with fhm. But, that doesn't matter. We've been friends for years already so I shall cut out the formalities la hor. Maybe it's fate that we are still close friends till today and I thank god for that. Stay happy and stay yourself yay!!! We're all beautiful people. :)

Joey Seah & Leow Xuying.
Eh. I doubt they will see this but I still have to name her out. Like how I am with Jess and Yurong, I feel really  relaxed and I feel myself when I'm with you guys and don't ask me why. We do not communicate much anymore and we rarely meet up at all. But, whenever we get a chance to, I don't feel the awkwardness or any pressure or whatsoever. Hahaha I like it. I really miss the times spent with you all and I really hope we don't lose contact with each other. Love you guys. Muah xoxo.

Nina Wang.
This girl is someone I do not need to be shy of, because I am so immensely close with her we've kinda become like family. We've been friends since 7 and both of our families know one another so well. She's very straightforward with me, and I am to her too. We are both very flexible people, and she's seen me in my worst state. She's seen the ugly side of me and also the pretty side of me DUH. hehe. She's too much to be a best friend to be honest. She's family already. I know we will become best of friends till we die and I'm sure of that. :)

Okay last but not least,

Cedric Liao.
Obviously he's not gunna see this. But I'm still going to post him up my blog. He is obviously family to me too other than Nina. I could still fucking clearly remember the day I received my O level results. I was there sobbing and Cedric was the one who pulled me up, brought me out of school and callled a cab for us to get home asap. He was devastated about his results too, and yet he was constantly there talking to me, telling me it was not the end. I am extremely grateful him, because I am always, and I mean ALWAYS his priority, and I'm not even worth it. For this whole year, he was the one always trying to pull me out of this misery, because all this time I had been cursing myself, telling myself that I'm a good for nothing. I depended on him a lot. And finally everything is over. We've had a lot of fights, but I learnt from them and I really have to thank him for being by my side at all times. Thank you so much for appearing in my life.

And to all the other friends whom I didnt mentioned, I wanna thank you guys too. Thank you for believing in me, and giving me all the support. Thanks man. :)

Oh and guess what? Who's birthday is coming up in 11 more days?! Huh huh huh ?!! It's moi. Dewd I'm turning 17. I cannot fucking waitttttttttt. hahaha.