Yes, this is another ranting blog post.
First things first, I ABSOLUTELY HATE IT when outsiders like relatives WE DON'T EVEN KNOW or even so called ''FRIENDS'' of my parents come and stay over at our house. Basically ALL OF US don't even know them, and that includes my parents ok. FRIENDS OF FRIENDS also come over and stay, RELATIVES' FRIENDS also come over and stay like as if our house is a fucking hotel. Eh seriously ah, FUCK ALL OF YOU OK.
I know I sound nasty and mean, but you can say this is my limit to this. To be honest I've never had a whole year of complete peace and comfort at home. 'Cause once in a few months or even weeks, these so called ''people related to us'' ask if they can stay over for a few days, Well, what the fuck do you think we'll say? Yes duh! Do you even think we would be so blunt and say NO? I FUCKING HATE IT. And then they buy so many expensive gifts for us and then we feel guilty about it. Tbh I dun need them gifts or whatsoever. Just, you know, have some limits?
I really don't mind if they come once in a while, but it's been so often I'm getting so mad. And you know what? If we reject them, we will be judged as 'selfish' and 'not generous' and whatsoever fuck. WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ALL OF YOU? DIFFERENT PEOPLE HAVE DIFFERENT NEEDS OK I NEED MY PRIVACY MY WHOLE FAMILY JUST FUCKING WANTS PRIVACY. You have no idea how uncomfortable and awkward it feels whenever I go home and see STRANGERS there and I have to fake a fucking smile all day just to please them. I cannot even rest in my OWN FUCKING HOME. KNN.
So hi everyone guess what? Our so called 'friends' are deciding to come over again to stay for about 4 days.... WITH TWO OF THEIR OTHER FUCKING FRIENDS. SO WE HAVE TO HOUSE 4 FUCKING PEOPLE AND THAT ADDS UP TO A TOTAL OF 10 FUCKING PEOPLE AT HOME. Great. :)
How great isn't it? 4 people deciding to squeeze into a pathetic small room in our flat. How THICK SKINNED CAN THEY GET OMG SOMEONE JUST STAB ME CAUSE I CANNOT FUCKING STOP RANTING. I always believed that both parties must know whats the limit. I really cannot tolerate this kind of bullshit anymore man. We can be generous, but how can the other party just take it without sparing a thought for us?!
4 people? Seriously? I already have problem housing 2 people. I really feel so sad for my mom I swear. She hates it so much but she can't say no. Always unable to make a decision because she's afraid of 'throwing face' and then people start to take her for granted and fucking take advantage of her. SERIOUSLY? REALLY? Rejection is NEVER an option. Right now no matter how much I rant about this I still have to fucking suck it up. Always being judged. Maybe that's how the china people's culture works. It's about how generous you are, even when you don't like it. SPARE A THOUGHT FOR US PLEASE. I'm not fucking generous, but that doesn't mean I'm a bad person. I just need my S.P.A.C.E. Different people have their own needs. So I'm going to say this. I HATE THICK SKINNED PEOPLE OK. Not with close friends that's of course, but people who never know their limits to accepting people's kindness and offers. JUST. STOP. I love when people whom I KNOW come over but not strangers. I'm sorry man. I'm just selfish like that.
Once again sorry for the vulgarities. I swear I'm nearly exploding here.
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