Ocean blue, what have I done to you?

2 more days to my birthday, and I haven't prepared anything yet. I'm not even feeling anything at the moment. It feels wasted knowing that my 17th birthday doesn't seem as important to me and also because birthdays come only once a year. Oh well. I hope I feel better when the day comes. Hahaha. 

What I've been waiting for, is after my birthday. I need a fricken job. I cannot wait till I get to work and not stay home and slack and crap because I feel downright bad ok. I'm pretty excited and... desperate. Lol. So apparently today is the 15th month for Ced and I. So I feel rather good even though I didn't get to see him at all today. It feels kinda short and long at the same time. It feels like we've spent a lifetime together because of so many things that we had went through and at the same time feels like time is dragging. I would think to myself like ''1 year plus only?'' So weird. Gawd I don't even know what I'm talking about. 

Ciao.