2012

It's the 31st of December today, and today marks the last day of the year 2011. This is going to sound cheesy and stuff, but whatever I'm just going to go on with what I feel like saying right now.

2011...Worst year ever since I was born. Ever. And I'm not even exaggerating this, because it is a fact that this year has been so bad for me I get the little chills whenever I try to think back what I had done and what I had been through. It was hell at the start of the year.

No one could imagine the shock I got when I received my results. The feel of failure, the taste of humiliation that I got when I saw all my friends happily moving on to their next stage of life while I was just stuck there, with nowhere to go. I was so lost, so helpless.

I was in such misery and pain I actually thought life wasn't worth living anymore.

First 2 months of 2011 was torture. Everyday seemed so depressing to me and all I would do was to sit in a corner in my room and cry my heart out I'm not even kidding. I was really at rock bottom. Cedric was always there, and I could see how upset he was but I was too depressed myself to even care at that time.

Overcoming this obstacle was not easy at all. It was difficult man. Every time I would be questioned by people about where I went, which school I went to and all that annoying stuff. I started to hate going out and all I wanted was to stay home.

 But of course, I knew I couldn't always be like that, so I tried to pick myself up from there, and I did it eventually. If not for my true friends who were constantly there giving me the support and encouragement that I needed, I don't think I would be as positive as compared to now.

 To be honest, this failure, this obstacle that I overcame, made me grow as a person. I experienced many things this year, I learnt that failure is not always the end, and that life still goes on as usual. Of course, I had many other dumbass problems like family stuff and my relationship issues and all that.

 I learnt that people do change, no matter how many promises they made to you and that they will never be the same as before no matter how much you want them to. This year is truly a lesson learnt for me. But it still sucks lah duh!

I really don't know what the future might bring me, maybe I will fail my exams again idk hahahahaha!!! okay seriously. *coughs* I will try my best to remain in this positive state of mind and live life to the fullest hehe.

The most important thing in life is to be happy and that is all that matters. Do what you think is right, do what makes you happy, because life is too short for any regrets. I hereby wish everyone of you a happy new year and let's hope that we can have a great 2012. I really badly want a good year man.

 I haven't really met anyone new this year, so I really hope I get the opportunity to do it next year. :) It's time for a fucking change aight!

3 cheers to 2012!!! :D