Thinking about everything

There has been a lot on my mind lately, or I suppose this happens every single night just when I'm about to go to bed. Over thinking kills.

However, tonight I'm relatively calm and composed, and I'm just allowing all these thoughts flow freely through my mind.. The what ifs, the could haves, my past, and the people in it.

I can't say I'm not sad, but I've become more peaceful as a whole. I'm thankful for that.

Sometimes I wish I could drop y'all a text and ask how you've been, but then it dawned on me that y'all do not care, and will never care. I will not be part of this system.

I miss you all, but that is not strong enough to make me want all of you back in my life. You're all just old photos which I'll want to look through and reminisce, but then eventually I will put all of them away in a dark corner and leave them there. Just like how you guys belong only in my past. It doesn't matter now. Not now, not the future.

Throughout this journey, I finally made some new friends whom I know will always be there for me regardless of anything and I am so glad because everything does happen for a reason :)

I'm hungry. off to eat cereal and sleep goodnight