Tired.

I've always put my friends and all my loved ones first before anything else, and that includes myself. It seems like their problems are much more important than my own, and I'll try my best and do whatever it takes to help them out of their agony. Such a hero eh?


Really sad actually.


Sometimes, I feel like I never really cared for myself as much as I did for everyone, like there is this huge part of that screams "NEGLECTED!" I am so emotionally drained tonight, really. Faith has always been a huge motivator for me but right now it seems like I'm losing every single bit of it. Never have I felt so dejected and disappointed in the people whom I care about. Every now and then, I'll ask myself, "why am I still doing this?"

I think it's time for me to stop now.
From now onwards, I am going to promise to put myself first before anyone else. Humans. They fail to appreciate other people who genuinely love them and care for them, treating me like a gem when they need me, and discarding me like trash when I'm no longer needed.

I will not be taken for granted anymore because I will not allow anyone to try. You need help? Fucking deal with it yourself I'm so done with this shit.

Friendships? Relationships? Love? Give me a break man. I am no longer in this game of lies and insincerity.