It has been 3 weeks since our trip to Phuket and I still terribly miss the days we spent there, and most importantly the amount of freedom we had. Since it was our first time flying off to another country on our own, it was a little nerve wrecking and exciting at the same time but meh it wasnt a big deal after that haha.
It turned out that 5 days was still NOT ENOUGH for us to truly enjoy ourselves but it's okay we promised each other to do this at least once a year (I hope we keep to that).
There were so many legit YOLO moments which we participated in (some which were not on purpose) and this retard nearly killed me. One friend nearly did that in Krabi in 2012 and like as if that wasn't enough omg.
Phuket is crazy expensive everywhere or at least not as cheap as what we thought the place would be and the whole shopping experience was such a bummer. I'm quite glad that the trip had a lot of good than bad or else I would have flipped.
On a side note, school started last week for me and that means yay(?) to being a senior in my school (like finally) and I honestly cannot wait to get out of campus I swear to god. My poly life of more than 2 years was nothing but an entire blur to me. To be honest, even if I were to leave school now I wouldn't even look back once. There is nothing particularly awesome or memorable for me to hold on to and I guess that sucks? No matter how much I hate my campus life I am still amazed at how fast time had passed because I can still clearly recall how lost I was when I first started school in year one. Indeed, time waits for no man.
Speaking of being in year 3, it is terrfiying to know that I am again back to square one, confused and frustrated about what my future career is going to be after I graduate. I'm sure all my close friends would have heard me whine about this for like forever ever since I started school and it's crazy how I'm still as confused as when I was in year one? I am constantly stuck in between making realistic and ambitious choices in life and it makes me feel very disorganized and muddled. Right now I'm just living every day, telling myself that things will turn out fine and I shouldn't torment myself with vexation and worriment. Growing up really SUCKS BALLS. FUCK YOU ADULT LIFE.
Lately I've been reminiscing a lot on my primary and secondary school life and it is downright depressing to know that I can never go back to those incredible moments and it's impossible to relive them. The one thing I am most thankful for is that throughout this journey from growing into an adolescent to becoming a young adult, I get to bring along with me one of the most precious gifts in this world. Friendship. Never thankful enough for all my friends who went through thick and thin with me, who know me inside out (sometimes literally) and never leaving me even when all of you have seen through my most unfavorable side. A lot of them have been with me for at least 5 years and right now I'm about to tear because I am so gratified for having such amazing people in my life. :') Okay I'll stop the touching speech here.
It suddenly struck me that I will be turning 20 this end of the year and that means I have a little more than 7 months to go. I don't know what to feel about this ok.
I pray for a smooth 2014 please.
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